We practiced Zazen for 1/2 hour and then listened to Michael. He spoke with emotion and compasion. I tried a new technique today. Something I learned from Jules Harris when I was sitting in therapy. I listened to Michael's words, his meaning. I ignored the tipical social reaction's I feel compelled to normally offer. I just listened and let it all sink in. I have never been introduced to this guy, but i know Michael loves me. It was an amazing moment. I have not been to the Kazeon Center in so very long. Do you know what made me go today? Dayvid (my son), he made me promise to take him. He loves it there. It is so wonderful to watch the love in that place flow over him. He's like a little flower getting water and sunshine. He just loves it. I am so thankful for everyone at the Zen Center and all of the love they give freely to my family. Thank you so much.

I have to say, I am a very blessed person. Joining Zaadz has been very wonderful. I have had conversations with several new people. Everyone here seems to be so loving and accepting. I appreciate all the advice and stories I've received, and I hope my stories and advice are helping. Brian (the CEO of this thing) has been very wonderful in responding to me and answering questions. Thank you Brian. Anyone who reads this and wants to influence the world, please invite your friends, let's link our world together. I have befriended several people here in Salt Lake and I look forward to new experiences and meeting people in person and working together to better our world. Thank you everyone from the bottom of my heart. Zaadz came into my life at a perfect time. Thank you to my friends at the Kanzeon Zen Center for introducing me. Everyone, be safe.

I believe it is so amazing that I write about a very emotional crushing thing here and a year and a hal goes by and nobody comments or says anything. But then today my wife receives a call stating someone in "The church" is using my blog to try and hurt or judge someone else. That person asked if I would remove it. I agreed to, not because I wanted to protect him or help him escape the truth, but for this one simple reason. The LDS church preaches over and over that only Christ himself can judge and decide fates.  This man did something wrong and he still denies it here on earth. So then according to your own beliefs, he will have to answer for that in the next life. Finding out that someone he works with is using my blog to harm him just reaffirms to me how corrupt and untrue the LDS church truly is. It's highest members bent on searching out dirt on another member!
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check this site out http://www.josephlied.com/ . Everyday the church members justify and prove my beliefs that the LDS church has become an apostate church. You tell me to believe in the scriptures because they are true and not to worry about the people in the church, but even Joseph Smith was advised by God himself to avoid those churches according to your own scriptures.
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Shame on him for commiting the attrocities he did. He has to suffer and has no chance of salvation what so ever in his life until he COMPLETELY confesses his own sins and works on his own redemption. I have had to forgive and my wife had to as well so his sins did not become our own.
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Whoever you are that found this and chose to use it against him is just as guilty for the coruption of your Church, if not more so. His sins are now on you as well. It is your sense of revenge and desire to seek out dirt on a fellow member that has marked the end of the LDS church as being the one true church. You have become members of an apostate church that has fallen away from God. I suggest you read your own scriptures to see what happens to God's chosen people when they turn a blind eye to him, change his words, and become cold to his words. I am glad not to be associated with the church, despite all it's good on this planet that it does do, it is still a simple fact that you have become an apostate church.
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When the time comes and you are faced with all of this and his judgement, I will ache for your souls. For it is not out of ignorance you do this, but out of sheer laziness and lack of courage to implement change and do what God has commanded. May there be mercy on all of your souls. Clint if you read this, please know that we love and pray for your soul and for you to do the right thing. There is still time. I know this haunts you, and there is resolve, but only you can make that  choice.